Shayne's Domain

Ho Hum.....

I'm feeling blah...Just arrived in Asheville to film the Jesus show for the next few days...but I really don't want to be here.  I'm grateful for the work, I'm making money, I'm in a gorgeous place, I'm with some great people...but I'm just not feeling it, you know?  My heart's not in this job, it never really has been, and that always makes things a bit more challenging and less satisfying.  I feel like a hypocrite, and I don't like that feeling.  But despite differences in beliefs, I have to trust that I'm impacting someone, somewhere, in a positive way and putting my talents to use.  It's a good lesson to learn, though...listening to your heart, being true to yourself, being grateful for what you have.

Can't believe the summer's over...but I'm so ready for a new season!  If anyone has any great stories about the summer fill me in!

Troy Carlton Henson

TROY CARLTON HENSON
8-25-1973
8-15-2008

In one of the stars
I shall be living
In one of them
I shall be laughing
And so it will be
as if all the stars
were laughing
when you look
at the sky at night.
The Little Prince
Antoine de Saint-Exupery

 (Pictured above: Marty, Helen, Troy, and I.  Dinner at Todd's, June 2008)

Grand Theft

Well, SHIT...sorry, but that's really the only word that comes to mind right now...the last day and a half have not been fun.  I walked outside Tuesday morning to go to work and my car was gone.  Totally gone.  Stolen right off the side of the street, in front of my place.  Nice.  The car, even though I loved it, is really just a car.  But it didn't help that I practically live out of my car so I lost some valuable and sentimental stuff.  Just really sucks.  But then later in the afternoon Todd called to let me know that they were putting Troy on Comfort Care (they took him off everything except morphine).  There was just nothing left they could do.  So now it's just a waiting game.  Sure puts things in perspective.  Yeah, having your car stolen sucks, but watching a loved one pass away...feels like they're being stolen away from you too.

http://www.carepages.com/carepages/TroysTransplantUpdates

http://www.troykickscancer.blogspot.com/

I HATE CANCER!!!

Not that anyone actually loves cancer, but I'm needing to vent.  As many of you know, Troy, Todd's boyfriend, has been battling multiple myeloma for over a year now.  Last July, Troy had some back pain. He went to his doctor who found a plasmacytoma on his L-1 vertebrae. It was removed, he started radiation treatment, life went on. The official diagnosis was myeloma, which is a cancer of the plasma cells in his blood. It is a treatable, but not yet curable disease. But the myeloma has returned and Troy's been fighting a tough, tough battle.  Last night Todd flew back to Atlanta early from a trip because Troy's parents told him the doctors are discussing "Do not resuscitate" options.  I hate this.  Cancer has taken too many loved ones away.  I just don't get it.  And I don't suppose I ever will.  So instead of trying to understand it, I try to volunteer with cancer patients as often as I can.  Because cancer victims don't get it either.  But at least we can try to help each other through the confusion.

Anyhow, just wanted to ask that you keep Troy and his family in your thoughts and prayers.  For more information, you can visit Troy's blog: http://troykickscancer.blogspot.com/

Love to you all...

A Few Army Wives Pix

Just wanted to share a few pictures from Charleston taken right after we filmed our scene.  Pictured are Mike Stoudt (my boyfriend in the scene) and Nataly (my daughter, who totally stole the scene...what a cutie!).  We were a little wiped out after the shooting, what with all the screaming and pushing and slapping and glass breaking.  But as you can see, my "costume" held up pretty well.  They definitely had me channeling some Madonna and Desperately Seeking Susan in a major way...some pretty serious blackmail material if you ask me.  Will let you know when the episode airs.